Life

So many moments have trickled past
This hourglass is slipping fast
Old trials have passed, new ones are here
So much life to live in this new year
I’m a mother today, only time will tell
If this moment I’m living has been spent well...

My days melt into one another, blending into a blur of monotonous activities that seem to have no bearing on the eternal fate of myself or anyone else. Dishes, cooking, laundry, tending to sick children, wiping bottoms, washing faces, hardly emerging from our home except for groceries or a doctor’s visit. Going to church... that depends on whether the kids are well or not - and that hasn’t been often lately. I’m not certain how this stage of life is supposed to be lived. I’m motivated to pore over books and study when I know there are others depending on me for spiritual nourishment... but it’s hard to press myself to be as intense when there is no one to pour into. Frustration seems to be the only reasonable response to such intensity, and I’m not exactly a glutton for punishment. However, in order to absolve myself from the fate of the lazy servant (the one who hid his talent in the ground), I shall make this blog my outlet. So may this be the first of many entries this year, and hopefully someone will be encouraged by my current musings, and recollections of memories past.


Mekeisha